I wrote the bio and that was such a chore.
I feel like a failure and can’t cope.
My little dog Olly died in October and the only reason I got through that was because of my partner but now they’re gone too.
I’m 32, I’d had Olly since I was 25 and I met my partner when I was 26.
The two most important parts of my life have gone within such a short space of time.
I’m absolutely shattered, I dream about them both and wake up sobbing most mornings.
I’ve spoken to GPs, been prescribed medication and beta blockers.
My family are amazing but there’s so much going on with them like cancer, Bipolar disorder, Osteoporosis etc. I can’t lean on them like I normally bwould.
I’ve spoken to the Samaritans a few times recently just because I’m overwhelmed at cooking a crappy meal, for myself. I use to have all of the family over for Sunday lunch.
I just don’t know what to do.
This is the first time I’ve posted in here. It’s been cathartic to write but I’m crying out and I don’t know which pink button to press!
Sorry if there are spelling mistakes, I’m a mess. I don’t even know if I can swear on here but that’s all I want to do!