Hi, I lost my wife of 37 years in march and the pain gets worse every day and I don’t know what to do
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It’s extremely early in your new journey, and feeling lost is very understandable. All we can do is hang on, sometimes by our fingernails, and try to find any port in the storm.
Eventually, it eases, and you will be able to start rebuilding your life. Hard to believe at the moment, isn’t it!
Cry whenever you feel like it, lean on your good friends.
…and keep posting!
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Thank you, I’ve been very worried about doing this but you have already helped.
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Sorry you have joined this club nobody wants to be in…your head will be a mess right now…your heart broken…this journey is not going to end but we all somehow start to adapt albeit slowly. Use this forum…it is populated by people who understand. It’s been my main support for 15 months. 
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Hi Bobb. I lost my husband of 31 years in March and I also have many days where the pain is unbearable and I don’t know how to go on. It is so difficult but we all know how you feel on here so please know you are not alone.
I find that I have a few days where I feel I can manage better, but then it’s slap bang right to the beginning and there seems to be no pattern to it at all.
I still haven’t returned to work and have no idea if I ever can - certainly not in the near future - and I find it difficult to do the things that were so simple before my husband died. I seem to spend all day doing very little, where I used to be really active, worked and looked after a home and teenage kids.
I started volunteering at a community garden near me where I don’t know anyone and that seems to help a lot, as it gives me a complete break from being seen and treated as a “Widow “ and I can give myself and my mind a break from all the grief.
It’s so early yet so don’t be hard on yourself - give yourself time - unfortunately we all have to go through this when we have loved so much. Take care.
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I lost my partner of 41 years in August last year. Had a massive stroke whilst watching TV so no time to prepare for his death. I cried every day for months but now I get a few days when I feel better. It is a long journey and for some it takes longer than others. You will get there eventually so just hang on there. I find that the lonliness becomes unbearable at times - I have no family and a limited number of friends. Things will get easier believe me but how long it takes is different for everyone.
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Hi Blobb. So sorry for your loss. Its 11 weeks now since I lost my husba nd after 42 wonderful years together.
I can only agree with everything that everone is saying. It will get more bearable with time, I’ve had 2 reasonable days this week, followed by bad nights.but i feel that maybe I’ve made a bit of progress.
Just keep hanging in there and take every day as it comes, cry if you want to, scream if want to, nothing you do is right or wrong, just do what you feel.
We’re all here for each other, listening, helping. Keep posting. It does help
Take care
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As you can see, we understand. I lost my husband in March.
Although it a short time, it seems so long!
Your emotions will probably change, up and down.
Disbelief, anger, sadness, confusion are very common.
Never hesitate to express yourself on here. It is a great help to me.
Speaking, or writing, to people who really understand can help.
Take care,
Rose x
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Sorry for your loss , my wife passed away in March and I know what you mean about the pain getting worse every day .
Like most on here I try to keep busy which helps , more and more though everything I see is reminding me of my wife and what we either did or now will not get to do again .
Keep posting your thoughts on here it really is a lifeline , we all understand what you are going through .
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Couldn’t have put any of that any better myself. Lost my partner 3 years ago . The pain never goes away but it lessens.
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Hi I hope the pain lessens. It’s two years for me and it still feels very raw. I think it must be me. I just can’t seem to find joy in anything. Life as we knew it has gone and it just seems so pointless now.x
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Hi, I’m so sorry for you’re loss, i lost my husband 4 weeks tomorrow suddenly.it’s a hard long road to travel . But coming on here helps ease you’re burden by talking with like minded people who understand how your feeling. 
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I lost my wife 7.5 years ago. I sleep with her blanket she had for cancer treatments and her pj top that hospice put on her after she passed and friends and family saw her. Her clothes we at the top of the stairs, folded in the laundry basket. They stayed in the same place for 2 years. It’s been a rough road raising 2 boys at the time, 13 and 14. We were married for 20 years, together for 26. Basically grew into adulthood hood together.
So very sorry.
You really have had so much to deal with.
There are people on here who will definitely identify with your wife having cancer and bringing up children after she passed.
People are very caring on here.
Take care,
Rose