Just so lost

Not sure what happened today, but ended up having a complete meltdown. Lost the love of my life getting on for 5 years ago now, and though today isn’t a special day or anything I have been a total mess and in floods of tears. I just became overwhelmed with the need to hold Val again, to tell her things, just to reminisce the life we had together. We had so much more to do, more to see, but her tragic illness robbed us of all that. Since she passed 2 of our 3 daughters have got married and we’ve welcomed our first granddaughter and Val has been robbed of it all. Realising that she would no longer be able to speak following major surgery for throat cancer Val made recordings for different occasions for all of us and just everyday silly bits and sayings, and I sometimes just listen to them, which can be comforting but also breaks my heart . Today’s been a really hard day, I know it wont be the last but we have to carry on. We’re all here to support each other and give a lift when needed through this nightmare. Take care all

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I can hear you, i am feeling similar and i am 4 weeks in, its a terrible situation to be in, and only anyone whos been through it can possibly understand, hope tomorrow is an easier day for you.

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george73
I am so sorry you have had a bad day today.These moments can hit us anytime, anywhere.We cannot put our finger on it sometimes what triggers it.can be small things, anything really.My dear wife passed suddenly here at home in february and i am still finding it very raw.I often feel, physically mentally ,and emotionally drained.This time of day is usually the worst and coming back to the empty house is awful too.We will always miss our wife/husband no matter the time that has passed.The longing for them to be with us will never leave usThat is the thing that hits me hard the plans we had for our future together in later life, now taken from me.As you say we have to carry on.We are all here for you George to help and support you the best we can.Take good care of yourself, keep in touch with us on here.We all understand how we are all feeling on this horrible road we find ourself

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I fully understand how everyone is feeling, I lost my husband just over 21 months ago.
The mornings are the worse for me, I cannot wait to get out of the house so I go for a coffee everyday.
Take care everyone x

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I hope you have a better day today George.
I know what you mean, i watched a holiday dvd from about 20 years ago, it made me cry a lot, but to see her moving and talking and seeing her giving me that smile. This path is crap. So please take care

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I am so very sorry…living does not get any easier without our loved ones to me 5+years on i feel it’s getting harder in different ways.
We were so blessed to have had them they were the best thing that ever happened and the worse. Now we plod on. X

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Polly1
I agree what you said.My dear wife passed in february living definitly doesnt get any easier without our loved ones.I dont think i will ever get over the shock, it all happened so suddenly>as you say we plod on.x

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