So today my partner will be going to chapel of rest and i need to get his clothes picked so my son can take them , also our wee dogs ashes are going in with him as he had always said that was a wish. Im sitting here with my grandson my heart is bounding to hard and my stomach is one big huge knot and i feel shakey all the time. I dont want to do this again im.not strong enough to cope again 
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I had to take my husband’s clothes in recently and it is so upsetting to do. I do hope all goes well for you xx
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I have got everything together and my son is taking them, i cant do it, dont think i can go say my goodbyes either
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Hugs Miamoo, its so hard but some how some way we do get through it. Xxx
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Its horrible and de ja vu.when i had to do it the 1st time and now doing it again,.had.to take diazepam because i.felt my heart was going to.burst oit my chest, thanks for your message .
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I am also 2nd tome loss of a husband . My fist dued in 2005 , but some how this seems much harder. Maybe because i had my mum a d dad then but they are no longer with us . I have never felt so lonely. Xxx
Im so sorry your experiencing this pain again. My 1st time was sudden and left me with so many questions and this time i just keep asking why, he loved me and told me a dozen times of say so why do this to me especially when he knew how suffered the last time. I dont think i can go and see him its just too much for me , im just lost but so glad i found you all so i have someone to talk too xx
Yep i ask that question to why give me him and let me fall in love only to take him away. Life seems so cruel, i keep asking what did i do that was so bad that i have to suffervthis again. Xxx
Same here , as much as i loved him at the same time i wish i hadnt met him and remained single then i wouldnt be dealing with this inconsolable pain
Its so hard , we know it means we are getting closer to the next stage xx
No i am so glad i met him we had 19 and half years of love and happiness almost 16 married. I remember our wedding day asbifbit was yesterday, tes the pain is beyond believe but i was loved and i loved and always will with all of my heart. I can beger explain the pain in losing him. The lonilness us a killer the ache is unbearable. I live for the day when i can speak is name without tears xxx
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I am glad i met him im just feeling extremely bitter at him for doing what he did and leaving me in the way he did, il.never love anyone ever again , i thought he was my happy ever after but thats been taken. I just want the pain , anger and everything to.go away ,xx
I understand Gra had no choice he died of heart failure. 
you have been left with alot ofbun answered questions. I hope you find peace at some point. Xxx
Me too, all my son says is that from paperwork he has been through he had been planning it for some time ,dont think il ever understand why he did it xx
Bless it must be so hard to deal with. I think it most be worst to except when they did it by choice. Hugs Jo xx
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