I lost my mom on the 12 of August due dementia complications. I was there when she passed.
I live at home and i saw her everyday and loved her so much.
The thing is i was able to function normally straight away and although i shed a few tears at her cremation, ive not had the strong emotions ive read about on here.
I do think about her all the time and miss her a lot but i feel i owe her more.
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I’m sorry you’ve lost your mom… I think we all follow our own journey through grief, and however you are, however you feel through your journey is right for you. There’s no manual, no script, so please don’t judge yourself on anyone else’s journey.
This is perhaps your way of dealing with the huge array of emotions going through your head right now.
Keep talking, there’s always someone here to listen.
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Thankyou. You always think you are going through it on your own. Its good to be reminded that you aren’t.
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John, you are certainly not on your own. But you will have your own way of dealing with your loss and it may take some time for that all to come out. What is a certainty is, there will be a time when the strong emotions that you think are missing (they’re actually not) will come to the fore. Your mum knows how much she meant to you. You will get through this loss. Keep taking care of yourself.
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Thanks your kind words. I think its because I always expected to be a wreck when it happened. And because I’m not then something must be wrong. But having read a lot of the posts on here i realise that we are all different. And this must just be my process.
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I could have written your post myself I also lost my mom this year on the 13th of August the day before her Birthday. I am exactly the same as you, I didn’t live with my mom as I have my own family but I spoke to her everyday and went to visit on a regular basis every week and also we always went out on day trips together etc we were very close. I cried on the day she passed and a few times since while sitting on my own and at her cremation, but I was able to return to work after a week and I’m managing to function. Reading other people’s posts I do feel like I should be more of a wreck, I loved my mother dearly and she was my best friend so why am I not crying all the time.
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Thats exactly how it is for me. Although i dont want to be a wreck, it feels like i should have been considering its probably the biggest loss I’ll ever feel.
I realise after reading the kind replies that i have nothing to feel guilty about, it does feel like, emotionally, i got off easy.
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I lost my Dad 3 weeks ago, he died in a horrific car accident, he was only 60. We lived in different countries so only saw him once or twice a year, had a chat with him every month though. I really loved him and have cried a few times every day, but I too find it that i can cope and it makes me feel so guilty. I think part of my brain still refuses to accept that he’s gone. When I do embrace the fact that I will never see him again or can never wish him Happy Birthday again I start to fall apart and cry like there’s no tomorrow. But then my brain switches to survival mode, tells me to get up and get things done, so I do. I know my Dad would want me to keep living and he would be sad to see me cry all the time. I think this helps too.
My thoughts for all of you guys who are in a same situation 
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Sorry you lost your dad in such a terrible way. I can’t imagine what thats like.
We must all have a built in survival mechanism to help us through these difficult times.
Dont feel guilty about being able to carry on. Life insists on it. Whether you have a family or have to go to work, we have to carry on. And in the end that is what will get us through this.
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Thank you for your kind words. It does help to talk about it, and to connect with people who are in the same situation as I am.
Sending love for everyone 
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