I recently lost my Nan & Mother in law in January. Still can’t get my head around it. Doesn’t feel right, feel like I am in a bad dream but can’t wake up.
Also dealing with symptoms from radiotherapy on a brain tumour.
Life at the moment is bad & grey 
Hi Titch, you are going through a bad time, I think you might benefit from some counselling, which is something the Sue Ryder can provide, it’s done on line at the moment or you could ask your GP to refer you to an NHS councillor, there is also Cruse, in the meantime take a day at a time, sending love xx
I have just seen your post
Hope you are not feeling now the symptoms of tge radiotherapy.