Living without my child

Lost my boy in September 2022, just few weeks before his 3rd birthday. I just had my birthday and i feel so guilty that im living another year older and he isn’t. Its also coming up to 1 year of his death and i honestly dont know what im doing here. I have a daughter who was younger and now 2year who gives me a reason to wake up but just feel so alone and constantly in pain. How do you live without your child?

Hello @Cmoore,

I can see that you’re new to the community - thank you for bravely starting this thread and sharing your feelings. I am so sorry for the devastating loss of your son.

I’m sure someone will be along to offer their support, but I wanted to share our page on coping with death anniversaries. The first one can be particularly difficult, so please be gentle with yourself.

If you’re not already in touch with them, you may also want to contact:

  • Child Bereavement UK support families with the loss of a child. They also support bereaved children. You can call their helpline on 0800 02 888 40.

  • The Compassionate Friends support families who have lost a child of any age. You can call them on 0345 123 2304.

I really hope you find the community to be a support to you and that you can reach out for further support if you need to.

Take good care,