I work in a school my soulmate and my everything died 5 weeks ago and I have been surrounded by my family parents and sister 24/7 since he passed away today’s announcement means I’m back to the classroom full time from the 8/3/2021. Truthfully his death as only just sinking in. I have held it in and not cried or fell apart until today. I went for a walk on my own today first solo outing and I just panicked and cried just to houses into my walk. I wanted to phone him ask about his day. Just struck me he’s not there I feel worse then when I found out he had died. ( Unknown cause of death and unexpected. )
I’m having bad panic attacks and feeling of emptiness, is 5 weeks in lockdown long enough to greive? Can I go to work have a panic attack and then get signed off sick. I’m also recovering from covid. If I’m with my parents and sister I’m safe and sometimes I manage a smile. On my own in class all day I can’t just have a panic attack. How did people go back to work? What job did you do?