I lost my husband on March 6th, i knew the end was near and i thought id be ready. I feel so lost, i have family but they can’t be here like my husband could. It’s so lonely, some days i feel like i don’t speak to anyone. I go for walks and keep myself busy but suddenly the grief hits me. I can be in a shop and just little things remind me and the tears start. It’s nice just to write this down and be open.
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Ali, So sorry for your loss, here we all understand how you feel as we are all on the hard journey of grieving over our lost partner. I lost my Darling wife of 52 years just over a year ago. I still miss her every day, I will always love her. I found this some time ago and it sums it up for me, " Time does not stop a heartache, or stop a silent tear, nor take away the memories of one we held so dear." I have tried to find some happy memories that I can call on when I need them, and just put the other two down to the price I have to pay for the love that I had.
I am lucky, in my village there is a bereavement cafe that meets once a month that I find helpful, there is also Pickaflick which is a film and a light lunch once a month, they seat you on tables of 6 to 8 so you get to chat over the lunch. I also belong to a book club which meets once a month, all social interaction which does help. I have BBC radio 4 on just about all the time in the kitchen as it is mainly talking and the house does not seen so empty. Grief comes in waves I do hope that you are due a bit of peace from it. when it happens I try and remember something that she did that made me laugh or I did that made her smile. No one who has not been through the loss of a long term partner can understand how you feel, on here we do as we are also going through it. Come on here for a chat or a ramble like I have. Sending you a big hug like you would get from your children.
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@Ali671
I’m so sorry for the loss of your husband that brings you here. We are never ready, even when it is expected. It moves you into a different dimension you can’t really experience before it happens.
Sadly loneliness is a recurring theme for most of us. Even for those with family and friends around them the loneliness is still there for that one person that we have lost who was such a huge part of our lives. Like many people here I miss all the everyday little things, what I call the comforting trivia of long term every day life with someone.
Just opening up as you have done, and accepting how you feel is normal is good for you. It’s still really early for you.
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Hi Ali6/1. I lost my husband of 51yrs on 20th April last year. We hab been together from 17yrs old & 19yrs old, we knew each other inside out. I still get upset when i see things in shops that remind me of him. This site has helped me , its nice to write down & share how you feel with people who are in the same situation & give you support, its a whole new network of friends, that cant see you crying while your showing how you feel. Saturdays are my worst day, Peter passed away on a Saturday & at some point during the day the fllod gates open. Please continue using this site, i promise it really does help. Sending best wishes
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Thankyou for all the kind words and support that i’ve had today. It’s nice to know there are people who understand and have and are still going through sad times. I will take each day as it comes and keep talking on this special place.
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Hi Ali, I hope you keep coming here because there are so many nice people here who understand exactly what you are going through. I lost my wife of 42 years on 22 April and every day is a challenge. I miss the spontaneity we used to enjoy. Never completely planning every day and just going with the flow. Now I plan more to make sure I fill my time. I don’t expect my feelings of sadness and loneliness to go away. I don’t want to ever forget my lovely wife. I would like to offer a word of comfort to anyone here who needs it. Be strong and try to remember that love conquers all.
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I lost husband 8 months ago I still can’t stop crying all day loneliness and sadness is hard have no friends no one to talk to getting harder each day that passes don’t know what to do anymore
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I feel for you. But dont think you have no friend,s , a whole new network of friends are here for you. I have my family & friends for support, but sometimes you just need someone who understands the pain you are going through, but dont have to sit face to face to explain the loss, the hurt, the loneliness. I lost my husband a year ago. I put up a mask with family & friends, but when im on my own it falls. Keep commenting on this sight when your low, yhere is always someone here, going through the same. Sending you a hug.
Sending a big hug. You are not alone. You have friends here x
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Ali671
Reading your post Ali is 100% how I feel in myself.
Perhaps we can help each other?
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Thanks for replying nice know others are feeling the same x
Thanks for taking time to reply hope we can help each other x
Lizzie 1918
The loss is unbearable.
I feel like you do, struggling to survive each day.
What happened to you?
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Always here if you need to chat.
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That would be great to help each other. Always feel like i’m only one to feel this way.
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Your definitely not the only one 
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Jackie 9
Hi Jackie,
Thank you for offering to let me chat with you.
My husband died 6 weeks ago to a very aggressive cancer terminal immediately stage 4 cancer that was diagnosed in November 24.
I nursed him at home until the very end which is what he wanted.
I am finding it very hard to come to terms with his illness & the extreme loneliness.
I’ve been a wife, mother & grandmother for so long, I was always so very happy with my life & in all those years I have never done anything for myself.
I have no friends.
Family have now all returned to their very busy family life’s.
And I don’t want to be a burden to anyone.
Hi Caroline. Peter & me were together from 17yrs old & 19yrs old. We had just celebrated our Golden wedding anniversary in February 2024, when he passed away 20th April 2024. Peter had suffered with Kidney problems since 1972. He received a kidney transplant in 1994 which lasted almost 26yrs, he then went on Dialysis, he suffered 6Cardiac arrests in 24hrs, he had a quadruple heart bypass, a double pacemaker. He never let anything get him down. Then in March of last year, he got an infection, his health began to deteriorate, i nursed him at home for the last 10days, my daughter stayed with me. I have one daughter, & 2 grandchildren 17&26. Even though Peter had health issues, like you i wasnt prepared for him leaving me. You have friends now on here to listen & support you. I find every day a struggle without Peter, but i talk to his photo, & that helps. Hope i haven’t bored you with the long message, but it helps to tell what life was like. Please chat anytime, you are not being a burden to anyone.
Jackie 9
No not at all.
We all have a different story to tell about our loved ones.
We meet when I was 18 & John was 28.
We married the following year.
John was diagnosed in November 2024 with Cholangiocarcinoma with liver metastases terminal stage 4, he really didn’t have a chance.
He was 21st & lost 6 stone .
He hadn’t eaten at all for the last 6 weeks & he could barely swallow half a teaspoon of water.
It was such a cruel end to his life.
People mean well with the best of intentions not realising that you’ve clung on to that little bit of hope that they will call & see you or even give you a ring.
Now everything has come to a stop.
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Ali671
Feel free anytime you need a shoulder to lean on