I have had no one to wish Happy Christmas to this year.
My husband took his life January 18 2024.
This year has been so painful and the past few days have been so lonely. I thought I was doing ok, but not.
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Hello, what an awful time you’ve had, there is a lot being written about male suicide, men don’t talk, share emotions, hide worries, deterioration in mental health, feeling unworthy etc… & the suicide comes out of the blue.
To take this action there mind is in pain and they just want the pain to end.
There pain is over but yours is ongoing, to be left behind like this I think is the hardest type of grief, you know that your partner would never have wanted this pain for you.
Your strong and you will survive this, you could look on it that you will live your life as though it’s yours but also his, he couldn’t live his life but you can for him.
Your n the very early stages of grief, it will get better, you will survive and one day smile again.
So much pain. So much grief. Please reach for strength.
We are all in the same boat here, that’s why we come and post here. Because we can relate to your loss. Be nice to think somehow we can help each other somehow.
So very sorry for your loss, so tragic.
Sending hugs and strength 
So,sorry for your loss. The pain is awful
I can’t get used to the loneliness my mums stayed with me for a few days over Christmas she goes home today and I feel really anxious about going back to being on my own x