I feel much the same. My partner was 66, I’m 70. I feel as if I’ve aged 10 years in the past three and a half months since he died suddenly. I’ve lost all interest in how I look. I have to will myself even to take a shower. I have financial worries and my anxiety levels are off the scale. I miss him so much, I thought we would have had years together, he always looked after himself, good diet, walked every day, non smoker and little alcohol.
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Thats the thing,what is the point? All the things you enjoyed,I like renovating furniture ,decorating being at home,all seem pointless now. No one is interested in my bargains! my house is just full of stuff
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I know exactly what you mean, everything is pointless, i seem to have no interest in anything now, we did everything together and now its just me on my own, what is the point?
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Dont know how you change it .For 55years I always planned everything with and for another person,in the blink of an eye ,gone. What is the point of cooking ,planning anything,how do you change your mindset?
Even the snowdrops coming through ,annoyed and upset me!!!
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Its horrible, i dont cook for 1, again no point, no one to enjoy it, no planning for one , what do I do, how do you ever get used to being just you, I cant see it at all, can you ?
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I still bake for 2, but freeze or save the 2nd portion for another time. Sit in front of telly to eat it so I have company.
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No,I can never see it being just me,never been just me. Lived at home then married.It just feels so alien to me.
So used to having that person that has your back,who listens and puts up with all your quirks ,who is your rock no matter what.
Just cannot see past the misery and the thought of the future,scares me.
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Same as me my husband was my rock my safe place, always together ill never get used to a future on my own, its very scary .
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I feel I’ve aged since my spouse’s passing, too. I don’t know if it’s just subjective or what. I think the stress hormones could be responsible. Walking and meditation can be somewhat of a help. I take a lot of herbs/vitamins, too.
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I’m having such a bad day today, I just can’t stop crying 
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I’m the same today just woke up this morning and still can’t believe l here without him
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I’m the same Dia, how horrible is it having to live like this 
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Hello Hawk 59
I wonder if there are any neighbours in your remote community who might be able to keep an eye out for you and help with shopping and general adult company/communication. Are there any groups you could join or is your community too small for that. Losing your wife and all the plans for the future must have been such a blow. especially when you have been together for a so many years. You are having to learn how to become and “I “ and not a “we’“ any more and this is so hard. I want you to know that someone is thinking about you and willing to chat if you want to answer this message. Sending you much love.
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That’s good advice about joining a local group. My husband was a member of the village carpet bowls club and I decided to go along to give it a go after he passed in 2023. The members were all so very supportive and were happy to talk about him with me, something others seemed wary of doing. I’m now treasurer of that club and it gets me out every Friday morning for a few hours to play, chat and gave a cuppa. If there is nothing in your community, then consider starting a coffee morning for bereaved people, I think it would prove a success as so many people lose loved ones every year and need an outlet (bit like this website). Lots of love to everyone in my boat, the choppy waters do calm a bit I promise.
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