Hi @nikfabs thank you for your reply. Life is just so unbearable now and I feel I am surviving rather than living. I went out in the sunshine the other day and despite loving the sun it now gives me no pleasure as I feel so lonely. Julie was a sun worshipper and our recent holidays were to Tenerife where we would just bask in the sun all day, blissfully happy in each others company. I am trying to keep busy, bedtimes I dread as I feel the grief the worst there. I love walking, but am just so anxious at the moment as it has always been a normal thing for me. It feels like everything I did before was subconsciously centred around Julie and now my focus in life has gone. I am currently having a lot of family visiting and enjoy the company but am easily drifting to another place in my head replaying the trauma I went through and now the emptiness. thanks for listening
Keith x
Hi @Sherbet10 Thank you for your reply. I too am sorry for your loss and I am glad to hear that the flashbacks have gone. I guess I am just scared that I will never recover from this and it would be so easy to take an easy option but that would be so unfair to Julie, she would never contemplate that and I also have kids and grandkids who I could not do that to either. She was the centre of our family and although I did not realise how much I was doing because of her I do now. She made my life complete and this pain is just so cruel.
Thanks for the reply, it’s now 6 months since I lost my husband. I am stronger than I was . I manage to have reasonable days and also bad days . I go to a bereavement cafe which is run by a church . You don’t have to be religious to go . I have also had cruise bereavement counselling. Which helped me as I could say exactly how I felt.I waited 5 months for the counselling. I know it’s not for everyone. It helped me , maybe you could find a bereavement cafe near you . I hope you have family and friends to support you. Look after yourself
Hello Frankie,
Talking on this chat line will hopefully bring some comfort as well as joining other support groups. I can only share some of my experience of grief and coping in an attempt to give you a way forward in your grief. I’m in my late 60’s, faced grief over the years and more recently in January my beloved Husband David died suddenly in an accident whilst abroad, married for nearly 50 years. I’m still in early stages of grief and have good network of family. I know what you mean about the loneliness even when in company. What helps me is my faith. I don’t think of my husband or loved ones gone forever, they are in heaven with new heavenly bodies, and we will be reunited again one day. These are hard concepts to fully understand but Jesus came to save us all. It is out of love for God I’m sharing this with everyone and even though I’m grieving deeply, I also feel your pain. I don’t grieve without hope, that’s what helps me and all those with faith. God bless you!