Thank you. And you take care too x
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Sue we do what we can and have to, if spending the day on the couch thinking is all you can manage that’s fine. We all have days like that. Look after yourself lots of love Lisa xx
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I really don’t know how any of us are surviving each day after the loss of our partners. Why is life so cruel when hard working loving nice people lose there life and leave all of this heartbreak.
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Thinking of you too . I just feel like is this our life now I’m never going to see Chris again or be truly happy again and for how long the years in front of me look as if they are never ending . Hope you are ok that’s all we can ask for meaning not great . Love to you x
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Hi my husband also died in September he was only diagnosed with c in march started his treatment in April gone September. I just wish he hadn’t bothered with the treatment as I feel that made him poorly and killed him .
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Yes your right life will never be the same. I really thought we would grow old together but it wasn’t meant to be. Our hearts will be broken forever. Yes just living day to day guess that’s all we can do. 
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The treatment is certainly not an easy thing to go through. I know the treatment didn’t save mark but he was able to tolerate it quite well although he did suffer with so many other problems. I’m grateful that it was able to give him more time and he was able to see our daughter get married 4 days before he died xx
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Your reaction is very normal. I lost my husband very suddenly in 2020 (not covid) . Like you l had people around me but it wasnt them l wanted it was my husband. When people asked how it was at first l said fine then one day l said, how do you expect me to feel half of me has gone. Then others would say phone me. Well no I’ll not phone because l wouldnt know what to say.
What did help was my best friend just sitting with me talking about my husband or saying nothing at all.
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Yes I think it’s hard for people to know what to say. I think the worse thing is after the funeral when the phone stops ringing and people stop visiting except the few good ones we can rely on. I’ve literally had people pretend they haven’t seen me the few times I’ve been out because they don’t know what to say, even a smile would do for me.
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Hello everyone…does anyone else have almost constant anxiety in their tummy ,along with chest heaviness, I am so grateful when it eases for a while.Feeling scared and panicking…I miss David so much …never ever did I think this would happen…love to everyone here feeling this pain …
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Yes constant anxiety, feeling sick all the time. Scared of what the future holds. Feeling can’t do this on my own. All round bad day today. Thinking of everyone going through this much love too xx
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Yes life doesn’t feel like normal . Always feel like I’m missing part of my heart. Still doesn’t seem real it’s like I’m watching someone else’s life then realise it’s mine. Don’t want to think of the future without Chris in it. Sending love x
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Same here feel like there is no point without Neil, I don’t think our hearts will ever heal really feels like my mine has been smashed into millions of pieces am sure everyone feels the same 
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When l was part of a couple we had, what l thought at the time, was lots of friends but now l just have a couple of friends. The people who are still in couples dont want to know me. Do they think l want to steal their husband. Ha no chance. I find one of the hardest things is that only half of the bed is used the other half is cold and empty. Half of me is missing.
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I just don’t understand people like that, I guess it’s times like this you know how your friends are. A so called friend of mine faked a car accident so they didn’t have to come to Neil’s funeral because I was told after it was “to near Christmas and she didn’t want it spoil her fun and Christmas spirit” I mean really sorrt my husband chose to pass when he did. Really we do not need people like that on our lives . I really have learnt who I can rely on and who I cant. I understand I also feel I am incomplete now xx
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Hi yes had that all the time ,it has eased off a little now though but still feel sick some mornings when the reality kicks in again.Still get scared and have panic attacks through being alone.It is a dreadful life now on your own.The loss of our loved ones will always be with us.I miss Judith so much everyday. Michael x
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I have the same issues. It seems many of us do. I have to really push myself to go out and driving is difficult for the first time in my life. I miss June my wife and constant companion of 43 years. Gone suddenly without warning 8 weeks ago next week. I too suffer panic attacks and shake uncontrollably. Being alone 24/7 is terrifying.
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Morning my friend,sorry to hear about your wife June.I was with Judith 32 yearsuntil she passed away last September from cancer.We are now left with this new lonely life that we did not want. Much love Michael x
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Thankfully someone understands how l feel. I get so lonely in the evenings. Just sitting with my dogs watching television. Ive no one to talk to. To dark to go out on my own even with my dogs. I don’t want anyone else in my life but I don’t want to be alone.
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Morning… going to see my husband this morning with his daughter who I am very close too, absolutely dreading it . Mixed emotions of …should I really be doing this …Reading the posts on this site really helps … last night I kept thinking…this can’t be real ,stopped myself from screaming out loud because my grandson was in the next room . Calmed myself thinking about everyone here going through the same heartache … another day to get through…love to you all x
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