Hiya I lost my dad little of a month ago due to bowel cancer after fighting it for 2 and a half years. We were very close and had an amazing relationship. I am only 18 and finding it difficult to come to terms with it. I don’t know how to feel about it. I still attend my education and go on day to day life, some days I feel numb but other days I don’t think about it. I feel really guilty for not getting upset and don’t know how to deal with it. If there is any advice please let me know.
I lost my mum just under 8 weeks ago and at the age of 44, im feeling exactly like you, somedays i can carry on and not think about it, on those days i question myself, my love for her.
Ive been told many a time that everybody’s grieves differently, theres no right or wrong way to griene a d get through life afterwards.
Theres good days and bad, but the good days don’t mean you didnt love your dad. Keep going xx
I’m so sorry for your loss. Losing someone as important as your dad, especially at such a young age, is incredibly difficult, and it’s completely understandable that you’re feeling a mix of emotions right now.
Grief doesn’t follow a set pattern, and what you’re experiencing—the numbness, the guilt, and the fluctuating feelings—is all part of how your mind and heart are trying to process such a profound loss. It’s okay not to feel upset all the time. Sometimes our brains give us a break to help us cope, and that doesn’t mean you cared for your dad any less. The deep bond you shared with him isn’t measured by how often you cry but by the love and memories you carry with you.
It’s also okay to not know how to feel—grief can be confusing and overwhelming, but there’s no “right” way to go through it. Some days might feel normal, and other days might hit you harder, and both are valid.
If you can, try to be gentle with yourself. Maybe find small ways to honour your dad that feel meaningful to you, like journaling memories, keeping something of his close, or even talking to him in your thoughts. If you feel like you need support, reaching out to a counselor or a trusted friend can really help; sometimes just having someone to listen can make things feel a little lighter.
You’re doing your best, and that’s all anyone can ask of you. Please know you’re not alone in this, and there are people who care about what you’re going through. Sending you lots of strength and kindness as you navigate this.
Take care.
So sorry to read this, @lucy_456 
. Is your college being supportive? Can they put you in touch with a counsellor?
Thank you so much for understanding I’m so sorry for your loss❤️
Burgled College are being supportive, I’ve recently gone back the only issue is I’m studying nursing so there is a lot of correlation with the topic of death and illnesses.
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Kalila thank you for this it means a lot. Seeing my mam and siblings have helped me see that there is no way to grieve and it doesn’t help that i’m the worst for feeling bad. Thank you a lot. 
I lost my dad 2 weeks ago to stage 4 bowel cancer. He only lived for 8 weeks from being told. I’m broken inside and don’t know how to cope. I still havnt processed it in my mind he had cancer 
