I lost my boyfriend of 2 years to suicide 6 months ago, since then, I miyself have tried to take my own life. I have received help and I’m back on track but I feel that this guilt will never leave me. I constantly feel judged by everyone. Each person I see or meet has a different opinion about me.
I know that I need to move on which I have tried and failed at but I’m too scared to take the step and meet someone else? Can anyone offer any advice?
Hello Kadiebx,
I am so sorry to hear that you lost your boyfriend to suicide 6 months ago. This must have been such a difficult experience for you. It’s good that you’ve had some help with how you’re feeling and are back on track now. Guilt is a normal reaction to any loss, but it can be amplified when you lose someone to suicide. There’s a website called What’s Your Grief that has a really detailed article about the various emotions people who have been bereaved by suicide may feel: https://whatsyourgrief.com/grieving-suicide-death/ It may be helpful to know that what you’re feeling is normal and you’re not alone in this.
There’s another organisation called SOBS (Survivors of Bereavement by Suicide) who offer a lot of support. They might be worth bearing in mind if you need some additional support: https://uksobs.org/
Don’t feel pressured to move on or stop grieving until you’re ready. Think about what feels right for you personally, not what other people may think is right.
Be kind to yourself and take care,
Eleanor