Hi everyone i lost my mum September 2024, i was doing ok, but after the funeral it then hit me, i have mental health illness aswell, my mum was my life, now shes gone i got all this space to fill, cant be bothered to do anything, mornings are dreadfull for me, and my mental health is bad at the mo, i live on my own at 64yrs of age, i have no children, have one brother who isnt understanding about how i feel, we only got talking this year when mum became ill, im scared how i feel, not eating much, which doesnt help my diabetes, i have a couple of friends, but im struggling to see them now, i say to myself , why am i hear, never been on my own at christmas, and im not doing anything this year, i was always with mum, dont know when this pain of loss will go 
I’m so sorry for your loss. I know how you feel. I’ve had chronic anxiety and depression since I was a teenager.
Mum was everything to me. We lived together, we read the same books, watched the same TV shows and did everything together.
Since I lost her unexpectedly on November 10th I’m completely lost. I saw my GP and he’s put me on new meds which are supposed to increase my appetite but I can barely eat a meal a day.
I agree that mornings are the worst. I wasn’t working because of my mental health and Mum was supporting me. The only benefit from the new meds is that they include a sedative to help me sleep but when I wake up in the morning, my first thought is that there are too many hours until I can go to sleep again.
I’m sending you all the love, Jill
Hi juijui , yes mental health doesnt help when we are grieving, ive been on meds many years, but still suffer when i hit very high stress levels, i do hope u can get through each day ,try and do one thing each day and be proud of yourself , i have to make myself do things , you can always chat with me on hear if u would like to, or ask me anything, thinking of you 
Thank you so much. I’m having a really bad day today. I woke up feeling really anxious. It’s Sunday, which is the day Mum passed away and I always feel worse. You have no idea just how much I needed to get your message and know I’m not alone. I’d really like to stay in touch with you on here, if that’s OK.
All the best, Jill
Lost my mum 2 days ago feel empty inside miss her so much she had a lot of problems I thought she make Christmas sadly she didn’t I got this image when I’m replaying in my head her last moments she looked peacefully when she went I know she was in a lot of pain still didn’t want her to go she never told me how bad she was till Friday went downhill from there when doctor told her she was dying keep crying when think of her I been on meds from depression years ago and now feel so lost
I’m so, so sorry for your loss. I lost Mum on 10th November and I feel completely lost without her.
It won’t now but eventually I hope it brings you a little comfort that you were by her side when she passed and she’s no longer in pain.
I was on meds before Mum passed because I’ve had chronic anxiety and depression since I was a teenager but I spoke to my GP and he has prescribed different meds. The side effects are awful though.
I’m sending you so much love 
Jill
Sorry to hear that Jill yea some comfort I was there was hard leaving her I hope your ok hope meds working for you just remember the happy memories you had with your mum xx
Hi juijui, i feel worse in a morning, and find it hard to get out of bed, i have to make sure i eat with me being diabetic, hope your managing to eat alittle, and your day is going ok for you, always here for a chat when ever you want, thinking of u xx
Hi@Dolphine64
So sorry to hear of your loss. I understand how your feel. I lost my Mum in May this year and she was my best friend, I was so close to her, life is not the same. Christmas is feeling difficult, I’ve never had a Christmas day without my Mum.
You must try and keep looking after yourself especially as you’re diabietic.
There’s so many people on here struggling.
Sending a hug
Hi juijui, was just thinking about you, how are you doing
Hi Dolphine, that’s so nice that you were thinking of me.
It was Mum’s funeral last week which was incredibly difficult. The celebrant was amazing and everybody said it was a lovely service so I hope Mum was proud.
They say you feel worse after the funeral and it’s true. It doesn’t help that the doctors have messed about with the meds I was on for anxiety and depression before all of this.
All I can do is move from my bed to the sofa and back again, I watch TV to distract myself.
I hope you’re doing OK?
All the best
Hi juijui, if i could message you privately i would, then we could say more to each other, your mum will be proud of u hun, she will be around you so much, trying to heal you with her love for sure, would be lovely to connect on fb with you , thats if you use it, hope you like the poem ive sent you, i chose it for mums funeral
That’s so lovely. Thank you, Dolphine. I really like the idea of Mum still being around healing me with her love. When I came home from the funeral, there was a feather just inside the front door and I hoped it was a sign she was with me.
Hi juijui, how u doing, im very spiritual,it helps me alot, yes seeing white feathers are from loved ones above, also seeing robins too, but there are many signs aswell, definitely your mum saying she is with you, thinking of you 
Hi Dolphine, it’s so hard but I’m getting through each day. I hope you’re OK? All the best x
Hi juijui, hows things, i got thru christmas ok, but cancelled my new year plans, as ive caught a dreaded cold, lets hope 2025 is a better one for both of us, always here for you
Thank you Dolphine. Christmas was really hard even though I tried my best to ignore it. I went for a walk and then came back and made flapjacks. Mum and I were never big fans of NYE so I just watched a movie. I was by myself the whole time.
I’m sorry you’ve got a cold. I hope you feel better soon x