Just wanting someone to talk to who knows what im going through as a parnter who lost theyre other half. I lost the love of my life last month and im really struggling to cope with his loss with the loud silence, his precence not been in our home and struggling with the thoughts of what he must have been going through we argued before he died and wondering if he died hating me or thinking i didnt love him when i did so very much im heartbroken all day everyday and just dont know what to do with myself.
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Hi. My thoughts are with you. Im going through a lot of parania and anxiety too. Feel free to message me if youd like to talk. I lost my soul mate 3 weeks ago. Its devastating.
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Hello, grieving is so hard, if your partner hadn’t died, the argument would have been sorted and forgotten, but now it feels like unfinished business?
What you could do is think if it the other way around, if you had died & knew your partner was thinking like this would you say “it was just an argument, I know it was nothing & would have been forgotten, I knew you loved me & I remember all the fantastic times we had & how loved I felt”.
Grieving makes us examine everything, it’s the brains way of trying to make an impossible situation (death) make logical sense.
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So sorry for everyone’s loss. My husband passed away 4 months ago and it still hurts. Part of me died when he died
Emily, your husband knew you loved him. We all say…if I would have, could have, should have, things would be different. Don’t carry that guilt around. You need to take care of yourself during this terrible journey we are all on together. Going to this site has helped me express my feelings. Sending hugs your way
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thanks for your kind words its been alone and the sleepless nights nobody to speak to at 3am when he would have been i miss him so much i wish i could see him for even a minute just to look at him one more time its so unfair
I can totally understand. I still wait for mine to walk through the door. At 5o’clock our dog waits for him at the window. That’s when he usually would get home from work. I tell the doggie… daddy’s not coming home. Feel free to reach out in the middle of the night. I also have a hard time sleeping. Keep reaching out and take one day at a time.
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Thankyou for that, we werent married but was going to be he was only 22 hes gone forever and it sickens me i miss him too much i cant see a way out of the pain right now i know he would want me to carry on but i dont know how to xx