Losing a baby to anencephaly

I lost my baby at 18 years old, I was 12 weeks and 1 day when I lost my baby. On my 12 weeks scan I was told my baby was growing slower than normal and that it’s skull had stopped forming. I haven’t stopped crying since I found out, the very last time I got to hear my little angels heartbeat was the day my very own heart stopped. I haven’t felt pain like it. I can’t stop thinking about it, I had to birth my baby and I seen how poorly my baby was. The image never leaves my sight.

Some days are worse than others, mornings especially. I wake up every morning hoping it was a nightmare with my hand on my belly. My little baby is gone and I can never get it back

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Hello Jamieelea12,
I’m so sorry to hear that you lost your baby. It sounds as though things are very tough at the moment and you are feeling overwhelmed.
I’m glad that you’ve been able to share how you are feeling here, and I hope that you find the community a good source of support. Everyone here has experienced the loss of a loved one and will understand some of what you are going through.
Sue Ryder also offers online bereavement counselling. This is a free service and sessions are held via video chat so you can attend from home. Find out more and register: https://www.sueryder.org/online-bereavement-counselling
Another good place to get support is https://www.sands.org.uk/support-you. They support anyone who has been affected by the death of a baby before, during or shortly after birth.
Take care,
Online Community team

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I don’t think what anyone says to you will make you feel any better, I suppose it will take a long long time for you to recover from such a heartbreaking experience. Hang in there. love. I am thinking of you.


MaryL x x x x

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I agree…its takes time and everyone is different and an individual. Keep going Stay Strong.

Sarah x