We lost our 18 month old son 29th September last year due to a rare condition he had (PIGA) and epilepsy.
He’s the only child in Spain diagnosed with PIGA, so during his short life span, he was a subject to medical research too. His medical journal gets published this year and will help with the diagnosis of PIGA for other children around Spain.
I’m part of the Online Community team and I can see that you are new to the community - I’d like to thank you for bravely starting this thread and sharing how you are feeling. I’m so sorry to hear about your son. Most community members have sadly experienced the death of a loved one and so will understand some of what you are going through.
I’d like to share some resources that may help - these are UK based but as you’ve mentioned you are in Spain, I’d also like to mention a website that may help you find support services closer to home: https://help.befrienders.org/
Sue Ryder has some resources that may help you in your grief:
Our Grief Guide self-help platform which has information, resources and advice to help you through your grief
Our Grief Coach text service, which sends you personalised text support via SMS