I understand your pain. It’s so unfair. Our moms deserved to live longer. I ordered a nice memory box and I will start putting some stuff in it.
Today I wore her sweater and it feels like she is hugging me.
I am staying with my dad right now. He keeps crying and it hurts to see him like that. He had never cried in his life.
Our lives will never be the same anymore.
Nicnic, your anger is justified. People can’t be trusted. My cousins and aunts reached out to me initially but they never checked in after that. When my aunt’s husband passed away unexpectedly, my mom stayed with her for 3 months and helped her cope. That aunt (my dad’s sister) has not checked in on me. I honestly don’t want anyone anymore. Ive decided I’ve 4 people in my life and they are the only ones that matter now.
Hope you find some strength to go through this pain.
Hi Nina
Im so sorry for what you are going through. I lost my mum this week aged 83 after she was diagnosed with cancer and then suffered a stroke. I was with her the last seven days at her home of 60 years as she slipped away. Like you Describe I feel like a huge chunk of me has gone… i wish I could just feel sadness but I have so many other conflicting emotions like regret and even guilt that maybe I wasn’t a worthy son.
All we can do I guess is try to think what they would want us to do and try to carry on doing the things we enjoy… I love cycling but haven’t touched my bike for two weeks since my mum was first diagnosed but i might go for a ride because I know that is what she would tell me to do. I’m so sorry for your loss and all I can say is take small steps. I understand too what you say about your brother. My sister has Down’s syndrome and my mum spent 57 years devoted to her. My sister also has some dementia and doesn’t completely understand why her lovely mum is not coming to see her any more. It’s heart breaking. Please be kind to yourself
Martyn
Hi MummasDaughter, you’re so right that it’s unfair. Same with my dad. Currently we don’t even go into my mum’s room because it’s just so painful to be in there.
MartynH, I’m sorry for your loss. I understand what you mean. I feel like I let my mum down and I wish I was a better daughter for her. It hurts so much knowing she will never know how much I miss her. We also looked after my mum at home in her final days but it doesn’t make it any easier but I’m glad she was with us. It’s so difficult to explain and you’re right so heartbreaking. Thanks for sharing x