Hi. I’m sorry to post but I am struggling to find a group / someone to help. I am so sorry for everyone’s loss on this group, and if what I am going through is not appropriate here, please let me know and I will leave.
I was in an abusive relationship which I left and I managed to keep my home and my 2 boys. I was confident and happy for 3 years and then met a previous boyfriend who I had always regreted splitting up from. Long story short, it took a lot for me and my boys to let him in to our lives but we did. He was going to move in with us permanently and the boys had just started calling him dad. He was my soulmate .
I made some tough life decisions based on the fact that he would be with us. I took a new job and unfortunately that unearthed something about him that I can’t forgive. Social sevices have said if I keep in contact I’ll lose my kids (which will never happen as they are my world), and my new employer has said I could lose my job. I know I have not suffered a bereavement but I feel like I have. He was here in the morning and then gone before the boys got home. I am devastated. I am trying to balance a new job and helping the boys whilst trying to come to terms with it myself. I just feel alone and that I’m going through beavement (whilst not). I thought he was our forever and I’ll never see him again. I’m sorry if this isn’t appropriate for this forum, but I just don’t know where else to go