I have lost my 13 year old cat on the anniv of my husband’s death two years earlier.
She wasn’t right and I found it hard to cope with her because I was struggling myself. I feel very guilty that I couldn’t be how I wished to be. I miss her affection a lot. Now I am on my own. People said get another cat on here or a dog.
But I still will struggle.
Then I will have to find some one to look after her if I am not here.
I found it strange walking by the cat food
and realising I do not need it. Then recalling all the cat biscuits in the cupboard she never had. I ought to gjve her food to my son for his cats.
My son still has her photo on his wall.
He was upset as he realized she wasn’t right.
It is a bit like losing my husband. In some ways those two years were important but
I am still grieving my cat.
Hi @Enorac,
Thank you so much for sharing this with the community 
I’m sure someone will be along to offer their support, but I just wanted to let you know that you have been heard and you are not alone.
Take good care,
Alex