Hi everyone im not one to put things out there i don’t do any social media or anything but typed in how i was feeling and started reading peoples stories. It was like I wrote every single one of them broke my heart.i lost my sister (my best friend my mum my go to for everything)six years ago five weeks after i had my little boy…she was fine we was out two nights before at my aunties bday (auntie has now passed as well 
)then suddenly she left us dvt pulmonary embolism at 34 years old three children…people would say ‘oh she wouldn’t want you to be upset shes in a better place’ i felt like punching them coz fuck no she would want to be here with her kids with her family she was fine just taken away and for what!!!i am so lost without her everything has changed nothing will ever be the same six years on it doesn’t get easier its just longer without her…lost and lonely all the time xx
Hello @Tyler2006 ,
I’m part of the Online Community team and I can see that you are new to the community - I’d like to thank you for bravely starting this thread and sharing how you are feeling heartbroken. I’m so sorry to hear about your sister, suddenly gone at 34, this is devastating for you and your family. Most community members have sadly experienced the death of a loved one and so will understand some of what you are going through.
I’m sure someone will be along to offer their support, but I wanted to share a few Sue Ryder resources with you that might be helpful.
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Our Grief Guide self-help platform which has information, resources and advice to help you through your grief
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Our Grief Coach text service, which sends you personalised text support via SMS
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Our free Online Bereavement Counselling which is held via video chat
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Our Bereavement Information pages which can walk you through what you are going through.
You might also want to have a read through our article: Sibling loss: coping with death of your sister or brother | Sue Ryder
I really hope you find the community helpful and a good source of support and I also hope you feel you can access more support should you need it.
Thank you again for sharing – please keep reaching out and know that you are not alone.
Take care,
Alex