I’m struggling so much. I lost my Mam when I was 19 and I’ve just lost my Dad this week and I’m only 33. I don’t know how I’m going to cope. He was my rock and I can’t breathe , I keep thinking about all the things I should have said to him and I feel so much heartache that he couldn’t say goodbye and live his life for longer. Does the pain get easier? 
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So sorry to hear you are struggling. It so dreadful losing your dad. I know. I lost my dad three years ago. I cried everyday at some point for two years. I miss him so much.
It does get easier. When I think of my dad I think of happier times now whereas before all I could see was my loss.
I have a few second video on my phone that I watch. It’s my most precious possession. It’s as if a little bit of him is still here
Cry when you need to and talk on the forum. It’s a refuge when you need to express the grief and sadness. Take care x
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Thank you so much for your kind words. I’ve just never felt pain like it and I was always his little girl even up until the age of 33! 
And it’s just juggling all the emotions as it’s all so raw.
Honestly wouldn’t wish this on my worst enemy, I hope I get to a point where I just remember the happy memories and not what could have been x
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Hi I lost my Mam when I was 13 and have only recently lost my Dad now I am 52. I would try to make sure you get the opportunity to talk to someone about your loss. I found it helped me a lot talking about what had happened. I could only describe the feelings initially as brutal and you think you wont move beyond them… but with time it is getting a little better. I sometimes have to just try to ‘block’ the painful memories and instead remember what made Dad ‘Dad’ if that makes sense.
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