I lost my dad 2 weeks ago after a 2 year battle with cancer. He didn’t actually pass away from the cancer, it was from severe pneumonia probably mixed with dehydration and malnourishment. In his final weeks he was barely drinking or eating. It was all very sudden and traumatic. At the start the emotions i felt was sickening but now i just feel so utterly numb and emotionless in the daytime but it all hits me at nightime. His funeral is next week but i’m scared my emotions will come bursting out and i’ll go into a dark place.
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I’m so sorry for your loss 
My dad died in a horrible car accident 4 weeks ago. Most of the time i feel numb too, like my brain doesn’t allow me to cry and break down. Maybe I’m just not ready for the accepting part. We’ll have a memorial for him soon too and I’m scared that will open the gates for me too.
We just need to remember whatever we feel is ok, we can get through this 
I am really sorry for your loss. I lost my Dad 2 months ago to cancer which he had battled with for 6 months. The first few weeks after he died were the worst as I kept thinking about what he went through and going over things. I found the funeral was OK because it was nice to be with other people that knew him. Sending you strength and courage to get through this time.