It’s coming upto 3 years in July since my husband passed away. He was 44 and died from COVID. Our daughter was 12. His father was already on palliative care and passed away 8 months later. I was caring for them both as they had other health issues.
Me and my husband caught COVID at the same time on day 6 my husband couldn’t talk to me properly and wasn’t making sense he was ok before this date obviously tired and weak like me. I called an ambulance they came out and told me he wasn’t a well man and I should have called before he got this bad. I explained he was able to talk and was weak but ok till now. This was when there were saying not to called ambulances and called Covid line to get advice etc as we were coming out of second lockdown and people were starting to mix again.
I couldn’t visit him in hospital as I had COVID too but spoke to nurses, doctors and him if he was able too all he said was he wanted to be at home and he didn’t need to be in hospital. I spoke to him the evening before he died and we were making plans of what to do in the future and how we were going to get more time together as we put everyone else first and now we were going to get quality time together. I spoke to his consultant who told me he was doing well and heading in the right direction and they had taken him off the full face oxygen mask and he was now not needing a lot of oxygen.
I was awake until 2am couldn’t sleep. I missed a call from my husband at 3 am. I woke up and tried to call my husband back but no one answered he hadn’t been answering my calls straight away because he was asleep or had to lay in position that meant he couldn’t see his phone. So I was up looking after our daughter.
I received a call from the hospital saying that they were sorry to have to tell me that he passed away that morning at 9:50 am. This was at 10 am. I then had to call my father in law as I was on last day of isolation and he was on palliative care so I had no choice but to call him.
I asked the hospital if I could see him to which they said they had to talk to infection control to see if they would allow it. They called back and let me go the back way into hospital away from patients onto COVID ward icu to see him.
The last 2 years I feel like time has frozen in that spot for just me everyone else has carried on but I’m still there. My father in laws health went down hill fast he need 24 hour care so he moved in to mine where me and my daughter looked after him. His mobility got really bad so needed equipment to help move him etc. Social services were asked to help me but they had no availability to help me so we did it without them. He passed away 8 months after my husband.
I got my daughter support and help to cope straight away she was my priority first. I’m now trying to get support for me as I can’t cope well I have been taking things a day at a time and am still struggling without my soulmate my husband and the lose of my father in law.
I’m sad and feel on my own with our beautiful daughter who is an amazing young lady.
