Hello @Subo1,
I’m so sorry to hear about your mum. I’m sure someone will be along to offer their support. In the meantime, I just wanted wanted to share a few resources with you.
You’re not alone. @Margaret123 recently shared her experiences of losing her mother whom she was estranged from. You can read her thread here, if you’d like to connect with her.
Many of our members have sadly lost a loved one with an addiction; if you tap the little magnifying glass, you can search for posts about this or anything else.
NACOA (National Association for Children of Alcoholics) also offer support and advice to both children and adults affected by their parent’s drinking.
And we have a guide on anticipatory grief, which is grieving before the person had died. It may help you to know that whatever you’re feeling is completely valid; there’s no one way to grieve.
Keep reaching out and take good care of yourself,
Seaneen