Hi
Thank you for taking the time to read my post, I’m in desperate need of support my Mum passed away suddenly in May, she had a few health problems being investigated previously which was awful as she carrying so much worry and seeing her go through all of that was awful but she still worked full time and was the best Mum you could ask for and the best Nana to my two children. Mum was taking from work in an ambulance and passed away four days later when they finally found out that Mum had been battling a rare condition she was only 60 and we have no other family left just my younger brother who is incredible. I spent every minute with my Mum and she was my happy place I looked forward to seeing her daily and we have never been on holiday without her and only live ten doors down she is mine and my children’s world and I just need to find a way to cope. There is so much I need to talk to her about as she genuinely was my world with my two children too. As it all happened so quickly I keep thinking shall I contact the hospital and see the notes from the night before she passed, luckily we made it in time before she passed away. The week she spent in intensive care we were so positive around her and she was able to hold conversations and I just keep thinking should I have spoke about how poorly she was. I miss her so much every second of everyday and the only thing that keeps me going is my children and the thought that one day we will be reunited. I’m studying afterlife and attending medium meetings just to find a way of connecting with her 
please help with any advice. Thank you xx I have a good support network in friends but I’m distancing myself as I’m so envious they still have their Mum but wouldn’t wish this on anyone, I just don’t know what to do.