Hi all, i recently lost my Mum to alzheimer’s 25th August this year.
I feel that ive been grieving since she was diagnosed in 2017. Now i dont feel anything. Sometimes i cry but not much, i feel like it hasnt hit me yet, and im worried of im gonna feel when it does. Her final farewell will be Friday next week.
She was my best friend and always my go too, if i needed ANYTHING. I feel angry, but not at mum, at life, other people.
Xx
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Hi Fiona9, so sorry to hear about your mum. My own mum died on the 20th August, after a long battle with secondary breast cancer, which was also diagnosed in 2017. I know what you mean about grieving since her diagnosis. With my mum, I would go through so many scenarios in my head, and try to take mental pictures of us when we were doing something fun, in case it was the last time. I am like you, and feel curiously empty right now, but I think it is just my mind and body dealing with the shock and stress of the last few months. The most natural thing in the world is to be like this I think. And it is all a process. All you can do is be kind to yourself and give yourself space to feel whatever. There are no ‘wrong’ feelings. Take care of yourself xx
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So sorry. There is nothing more horrific. It’s the worst thing that has ever ever happened to me. I am struggling still so much after 3 years so the only advice I can give is take it one day at a time and feel what you need to feel
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