Losing mum

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I’m struggling with grief. I lost my mum, my best friend and now feel totally alone. Mum died unexpectedly in October. Friends rallied round and. It left me alone. Then I had a stay in the Priory thanks to my psychiatrist. I went to stay with family abroad. I’m now back and feel totally alone.

Mum lived with me for 5 years as she had dementia and I was working and her full time carer. I have friends in London that have been great, but everyone has their own lives. Even my gay friends are coupled up. Ppl say book holidays but go on holiday by myself?

I’m back to work tomorrow after taking time off work. I’m lucky I have a therapist and a psychiatrist but doesn’t help with the crying every day and the pain of the grief.

I despair with my life, I’m a 46 yr old man in London and feel totally alone and feel my future is really bleak. I just want my mum back.

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I’m so sorry for your loss @Lusotart. It’s only a few months on for you & what you are feeling is completely normal. It’s really good that you got yourself professional help so quickly too & that you have that resource to tap into.

We can’t fast track grief especially when your life was so entwined with your mums.

All I can say is to take one day at a time. Eat. Sleep. Cry. Repeat. Let yourself be & use this forum, as you will find so many supportive people on here who get what you are going through.

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