Hi I lost my mum in September 2024. She was my best friend my every thing. I’m struggling to cope without her . I have no family left. My anxiety has gone thru the roof since she died I don’t feel safe anymore. The loneliness is horrendous. I learnt who were my true friends since she died. Many that promised mum they would keep an eye on me don’t see them. I have Parkinson’s too so Iiving on my own is difficult on times when I get bad days withe Parkinson’s symptoms. Don’t know what do anymore. Would like to chat and make some friends or share my thoughts with some one going thru the same thing
Hi @Jo2575,
Thank you for bravely reaching out. I’m so sorry to hear about the loss of your mum. You are not alone. I’m not sure if you’ve seen our Losing a parent category. But there you will find lots other members sharing their experiences of living with grief after losing a parent.
I’m sure someone will be along to offer their support to you. In the meantime, you might find these Sue Ryder resources helpful to read.
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Our Losing a parent page talks through some of the emotions you may be experiencing
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Our Grief Guide self-help platform which has information, resources and advice to help you through your grief
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Our Bereavement Information pages which can walk you through what you are going through
I hope you find the community to be a support to you. Take good care and keep reaching out 
Alex
Hi I too lost my mum in May this yr after looking after her for almost 3 yrs bed bound at home. I am going through so many different feelings and the loneliness and anxiety. My husband has Parkinsons and he cant cope with stress. Talk to your Parkinsons nurse about your feelings she may be able to help you.
Hi,
I’m going through something similar. My mother was my best friend too. She died at the end of August this year with heart failure. I miss her very much. She was my rock and she had everything to do with my life, or I gained inspiration from her. I have other family members, but we are nowhere near as close. They are rather cold and emotionally unavailable. I can’t talk to them about my grief - I just get patronising comments. Sometimes, I feel I don’t know if I will last long or I will lose my mind, or that I will even lose my loving connection to my mum, through being pressured to move on. I feel my mind is being read. My mother knew all about these things and I could talk to her about these very issues, and she understood them. Now, she’s gone. You are not alone here. If you need to chat please do.
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I think losing my mum has almost at times felt as if i am going insane. It makes you think about your own mortality. I miss her so very much and struggle to carry on mentally alrhough to the world outside i do my best to get on with things but im not really coping too well at all. I understand how you are feeling. xx
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I’m sorry that your mum was bed bound for 3 years. My mum was very similarly going between a hard chair to the bed for about 3 years too. The stress and anxiety this causes is hard to deal with.
Totally get the way you are feeling, I lost my Mum 8 weeks ago and the rest of family are just getting on with their lives, as if she was never here, folk always say everyone grieves differently, but I don’t fully agree with that, for them all to totally just carry on as normal and not bother with me, who still stays at Mum’s house, I know it’s because my love for my Mum is way different from theirs 
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Everything is hard to deal with because we were the ones who were there and know the daily struggles and pain and suffering. Everyone was in tears at mums funeral but couldnt find the time to visit her when she was very lonely at times and always said to me " Where would I be without you?" I never regret looking after mum it brought us so much closer we were best friends. ive currently got my daughter in law in hospital and am helping my son and grandaughter as well as my husband with Parkinsons who seems to be struggling more and this takes away my grief to a point until bedtime when im alone again. I think grief is a lonely world to be in and other family members dont seem to be in that world because they werent in mums life as much . Hope you are managing your grief or at least finding ways to cope.
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I’m sorry everyone. This is the hardest time of amy whole life and I have so much sympathy for anyone that goes through this. I lost my mum 4 weeks ago, after a long hard battle with cancer. She was only 67 and passed on her birthday surrounded by her husband, me & my brother just how she wanted it. It was peaceful, but absolutely devastating to watch someone who was not long ago so full of life fade before your eyes. Now I’m just numb, in disbelief. I can’t function, I miss her so much and I don’t know how to move forward. I have a loving husband, kids and a wonderful life but I feel like my whole world has been destroyed x
Im so very sorry for your loss your mum was my age and must be so hard for you. I too was numb at first and not so many tears just a horrible emptiness and numbness. Life does carry on and its so hard to even motivate oneself but when others rely on you its something you have to do. It does help a little but the disbelief and the wanting them to just come back is so hard to bear at times. Its been 4 months now since mum died and it is still very hard. I lost my father 25 yrs ago and my sister the yr after and that was hard enough but losing mum is different altogether. Try to keep busy and motivate yourself even when you dont want to get out of the house it does help the stress of it all. I find potting my patio plants and bulbs just now is a sm distraction. Take care of yoursef.
I totally agree with you, funerals can make you angry, when you think of all the times your Mum & you could have done with regular visits, I’m like you my Mum was my best friend, our Mum’s deserved so much more from the family, I got to stay with my Mum for 56 years, so glad I did, it’s their loss that they never got to spend such precious time with our Mum’s and our Mum’s knew it 
Yesterday I had a message from a Marie Curie nurse who used to go to mums when she was at home and stay the night. Two of them came to mums funeral and one visited me at my home before it. They want to keep in touch with me which filled me with emotions of gratitude and realising they cared so deeply for mum. I got to know them over the phone over a period of 18 months. Not every night sometimes one a wk then 3 nights out of the blue at times. Mum was expected to die so long back but her strength was remarkable. Her sense of humour was great too. I feel blessed they want to keep in touch as no one else has asked me how Im doing even though its only 4 months. Sometimes things come out of the blue and helps considerably. Take care everyone x
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Dearest Jo,
I wanted to reach out and say I’m so sorry to learn about your Mums passing. It must be horrific is there anything you need even if it someone to talk to.
My mum is sadly dying also she has pancreatic cancer and I feel everything you have written down and it’s a killer.
It’s so sad and I feel like my world ended ,
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Ohh that is lovely they want to keep in touch, I know I am 2 months and it’s the same with me, when the funeral is by, they just expect us to be ok
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So sorry to read this, you are heartbroken already and you have far worse to come, sorry to have to say that, but just preparing you, I was the same, I sat with my mum for nearly 8 nights when she was put on end of life care, I was traumatised, but nothing prepared me for what I felt when she actually passed, have never felt pain like it, that’s 2 months since she passed and it gets worse everyday she isn’t here
Its so hard to watch your mum as the end of life approaches. Knowing its going to happen and waiting. But remember that she will hear you. The doctor told me my mum wont respond anymore a day before she died but she did. I slept at her bedside and sang to her and asked her for a kiss. Her lips tried to purse a kiss even though nothing else moved. I kissed her many many times and told her i loved her so much. She went through the process of dying and at her last breath opened her eyes and we looked at one another then she left me. I felt her leave the room which sounds silly but i did. Even at the funeral i knew she wasnt there anymore which was strange . Stay strong as strong as you can for her because she knows you love her because you are there . Bless you xx
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Im really struggling my anxiety is thru the roof its really affecting my parkinsons. I feel most days i cant go on n i have nobody to help me
Talk to your Parkinsons nurse or the doctor. Stress makes Parkinsons worse my husband cant cope with any stress but the anxiety can be helped with antidepressants. My husband was going to take his own life he got so depressed but i came home after id set off out shopping because he looked different and i finally got to hear what he had been keeping inside. He says i saved him. Hes on sertraline now which helps. Get an appt asap please and try to stay as positive as you can even a out sm things. Take care xx
Dear Lainy
Thank you for your message, I have so much trauma already - I don’t know how you have done it .
I am 35 and so very lost, I don’t know how to cope at work or even just be a mum to my kids xx
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Dear Shirley,
Your mums passing sounds as nice as it could be, I hope to be with my mum at the time it comes.
I am just very scared xxx