Hi my names Keeley I’m 45 I lost my son 96 days ago he was 28 years I found my baby boy asleep Postmortem put down SADS I’m so empty lost everyday it’s same thing how can my baby boy fall Asleep and not wake up ryan was my first born I was 16 years old when I had him he was first boy we did everything together he was always on phone or at our home can’t seem move forward everyday fells like a struggle to get out bed but have to be strong I have a 10 year old that needs me
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Hi, I am so sorry for your loss.
Your post really touched me because it is very similar to me.
I lost my first born just over a year ago.
He too phoned and messaged me all the time and we did a lot of things together.
I had him when I was 19 years old.
He went to bed and did not get up again.
Since he’s passing my anxiety , it’s through the roof.
I have lost so much weight.
I have two other children that need me but it’s so hard.
I just don’t know what to do any more
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My heart breaks for you aswell i hate the fact he went sleep And didn’t wake up that’s not an answer to me Just don’t get how you can do that how can leave me like this the anger I have my brain just goes over and over again why why did you leave me I’m trying move bit forward but everyday I’m Back crying trying get motivated it’s just
It’s so hard I talk about him everyday I make Sure he’s included in stuff miss his energy his Laugh just want cry but my 10 is watching me got to do this For her please tell me this gets easier little
Bit
You ever need a chat please inbox me
I am so sorry for your loss of your beautiful son. I was 19 when my son was born. On September 11 2025 he died of a heart attack. He lived alone and was alone when passed away.
Everyday is a nightmare and grief. I feel so lonely until I read all your messages. No one understands unless you have lost a child.
To all the moms and Dads on here who have lost a child I send all my love.
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Still 19 is no age to go where ment go before our children not other way around wish pain would ease one minute I’m fine well moving and littlest thing can trigger me and I’m a crying mess again I came on this page as I’ve lost my mam 3 year ago but then lost my boy and it’s totally broke me like the world is moving and I can hear people but nothings going in and not moving just looking in to Space part me has died the day he died sending everyone who’s lost someone lots hugs
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Hi im 53 i had my son at 20, he died in a motorbike accident in Thailand before new year, i still refuse to believe hes gone even though i know he is, i do t think life will ever be the same.
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I am sorry I was not clear in my post. My brain feels like mush since my son died. I was 19 when I had him and he was 48 when he died. I feel the same way you do. I am walking between 2 worlds. I have no motivation to do anything. I really don’t have anyone to talk to about my son. I have another son but he was not close to his brother.
I have so many thoughts cluttering my brain I can barely write a message. You are crazy you are going through the grief of losing your son. The grief of losing a child is not comparable to any other.
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I meant you are NOT crazy. Sorry about that.
I am so sorry about your dear son. My son died on Sept. 11 2025. I feel is is still living down the street in his apartment. When my brain sometimes accepts that he is gone I cry all day.I walk a strange path of thinking he is alive and I realize he isn’t.
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It’s a horrible feeling isn’t it I have 2 daughters but don’t want keep talking them about it same with my friends feel like I’m always taking about him and there just looking at me as if to say are he she goes again so I say noting to anyone I grieve alone it’s easier and other days I’M so mad at him for leaving me the hurt and pain grieving horrible but we have people who need us here so we have keep moving wipe tears away and stay strong everyone x
Yes it is a terrible feeling. I don’t talk about my son to anymore either. I feel I just either a blank stare or some statement that will annoy me. I really don’t enjoy being around anyone because I am forced to wear a mask. I don’t want to pretend everything is Ok because it is not ok. It will never be ok or the same again.
I am truly sorry for the loss of your beautiful children. The pain is indescribable, i know, i feel it.
My beautiful son James died suddenly and unexpectedly last year age 31. James dies of Sudep following an epilepsy diagnosis 10 months earlier. James died alone, this is a vision that haunts me. I pray everyday that he didn’t suffer and I’m haunted every night that he did. I feel so very sad for James, he had plans, he was supposed to live a wonderful life full of chaos and clutter just how he imagined it.
Grief takes every ounce of your energy but I’m still here, still breathing and remembering James with love. I always want to say his name and tell you how he lit up every room he entered.
We don’t need fixing, we are not broken. We are grieving the greatest loss imaginable. Losing James has been the biggest heartache and having him in my life has been the greatest joy.
I have blamed myself as a person and a mother for failing James at the last hurdle, i have carried the weight of everyone’s loss. I should have done more.
I couldn’t have done more. Acceptance doesn’t mean forgetting, it doesn’t erase the pain but in the midst of my loss, i can feel moments of light, connection and purpose.
Please reach out, anytime.
Lots of love to you all x
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My son was 33 when he died just before mew year, in a motorbike accident in Thailand, it kills me he was alone in a country on the other side of the world. The pain of having to get his body home all alone having no one there for him is going to haunt me forever. We have no facts about what happened, the only bit of happiness i take is that he was living his best life, had been to watch the sunset at a beach and was on a scooter travelling back to his hotel, ive been told it was quick and hopefully he felt no pain but my heart hurtsi was not there to hold him and tell him i love him.
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I completely understand. James died on the path outside of his house. He was there all night before his lovely neighbour found him. A vision that haunts me, James died on my watch and the guilt was suffocating. I have no idea how i have lived over a year without my wonderful James, i struggle to comprehend our time apart. Our life wasn’t finished, we should have had years together because i still had years left to love him.
I look at his beautiful face and know that no matter how hard this journey is, i owe it to James to live the life that he has lost. I cant waste it or losing James would have been for nothing. I know James is my biggest fan and i have to make his life count. 31 years of memories, bear hugs, laughter and endless love will never be forgotten. James will never be forgotten. Hold on to the happiness you feel, the perfect sunset. I know just how much your heart hurts. please know you are not alone.
Sending love xx
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My beautiful son died on Christmas Day 2025, aged 26 years. I’m hurting so much. The pain is unbearable. How can I continue the rest of my life without him in it.,
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We had 28years of laughter tears we did them all he gave me to beautiful grandkids that I’m totally loving as there part of him but the pain of loosing him has broken me I can’t sleep I constantly check on my daughter all night I scared incase they fall Asleep and they won’t wake up seem our lives are all full love and pain grief is hitting us all hard feel Like it was only yesterday he passed sick of going over his last moments before he passed that night why do we fill Our brains with the whys and what ifs sorry for everyone’s loss just nice have someone who feels the way I Do cause I have family and friends just feel Like there moving on and I’m still hear
I wish I could say the pain gets better but I’m 99 days in and still feel no better not better just enough to move on or even have a good day but I’m here if you want talk I
Don’t know you and you don’t know me that’s why think works that we can help Each other through these dark days
Oh i feel you, its just devastating when they got so much life to live. Im only today throwing out christmas cards and still got presents he sent me on my sofa. Life has just stopped. Sending you hugs and tears through my phone xx
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