Hi all
I am new here
My dad started being poorly in January 2023 by losing loads of weight and he got tested with loads of test and nothing came up.
The doctors at the hospital diagnosed my dad with Myelodysplastic syndrome and then in November 2023 my dad got diagnosed with Vascular Dementia.
My dad got worse in November 2023 and the GP sent him to hospital for scans and x rays.
They took a while to come back the scans and x rays .
On Thursday 14th December he had a phone call of his GP saying that they are going to send an ambulance because he had pneumonia. The ambulance came and the paramedics said that they think he had sepsis to.
Dad got admitted to the hospital and doctors did tests and they where thinking he might have TB to. Plus while he was in hospital he had a mini stroke because he speech was slurred and it was quite hard to understand my dad.
On Monday 18th December I had a phone call of my mum saying that dad has gotten worse and he might not make it .
So all the family came to be with dad. My dad was sleeping all the time and he was settled.
The sister of the ward came in and said that they are going to reduce the oxygen to 25% every 15 minutes and they did this twice more and my dad took his last breath.
We had Christmas and New Year and on Friday 5th January my mum had a massive heart attack. Mum came out of hospital on Tuesday 9th January 2024 and then we had dad’s funeral was on Thursday 11th January 2024.
I saw my dad took his last breath, I went with mum to do the death certificate and I attended my dad’s funeral.
I still keep thinking he is still alive and he is enjoying life with mum and the dog .
I still keep thinking it’s just a bad dream.
I want my dad back and I miss him dearly
I suffer with mental health issues and my mental health have gone worse and I started to self harm again.
I can’t sleep because when I do close my eyes I can see my dad take his last breath.
I have got a supportive family .I have got my husband and my son .
When will the nightmare will end ?
I just can’t cope anymore with it all
I am just at a dead end
I have got an GP appointment on Tuesday 6th February 2024
Will it be a waste of an appointment ?
Should I go to the GPs appointment ?
What is the next stage because I just don’t know
Thanks for reading