Losing My Daughter

I do not know where or how to start. Zoe my eldest (45) passed on last month very suddenly and totally shocking. At the time she was organising her Mum’s birthday party (my ex), which was two days later. She went to her bedroom to text the last few people on her list, as per Zoe she talked until very late. From piecing texts from friends we estimate one of these text was 4am . She received and answered text from a cousin at 7.10am. She went to sleep around that time, by early morning her Mum could not raise her, nor my other daughter.
Police were called who broke in, informing her disabled Mum who had struggled to her home, she was gone.
That was Mar 13 , we still do not know what the cause, we awaiting the results which were estimated at being up to 16 weeks, before we know

I still cannot describe what happened when my daughter rang me, I can remember, crumpling to the floor, from that moment I have been on and through an array of emotions, from Disbelief to hostile anger. We arranged a celebration of Zoe,s life with the terrific support from Funeral Director and Celebrant. The celebration was beautiful and colourful As was Zoe, Many readings an poems were read even a top tribute act for Robbie Williams recorded a special version of Angels for her. Her pink coloured casket was carried to a hearse while we stood on a verandah as her last journey was through the woods.

That was April 7th, I still feel numb,anger disbelief trying to hide away as much as possible, doing very little only sobbing and sobbing. Trying to support my ex, sons and daughters. But I just seem all over the place, lost and very empty

Hope I have not rambled too much

Hi, I lost my eldest son, he was 40, suddenly in November. He was found by a friend.
We waited 16 weeks for the pm results to be told he had died of ischaemic heart disease. Nobody knew.
It’s 24 weeks today since I got the call. I still cry most days and have moments where I don’t believe he’s gone.
All I can say is go day by day. Grief is different for everyone and do what you need to do. I have 3 other sons and to be honest I don’t know how any of us have got through, if you asked them they’d all say different things. My husband doesn’t talk to me really but he does have a close free can talk to. I have a couple of really good friends who check in on me a lot, and I’ve talked on here a lot too.

Thank you for replying, Sorry for your loss, it is heartbreaking , that term gets so over used for what can be termed trivial when compared to losing a loved one. I cannot come up with another description. Even though we were a few miles apart We talked almost every day. I still find
myself checking my phone.

O trust that time brings some peace for you and myself, I do not expect to really get over this loss, there is a hole that seemingly can not be filled.

I send my best wishes, in the hope we can find strength every day to cope.

Take cate

Gordon

We have to get by, day by day, for our children.
You never know what strength you have until it’s needed.
Take care x