Not sure how to start this or even really what to say but 2 days ago I lost my grandad and I feel so lost, alone and like I’m living in a fog 
he was in hospital and on the mend but had a heart attack quickly… I feel anger towards the hospital though perhaps I shouldn’t and sadness because I don’t have anyone to comfort me anymore… I get messages sure but then I want to just be left alone and I sit for hours with my head just full of racing thoughts and memories. My usual hobbies I don’t want to do and I’ve been sleeping a lot too. I just don’t really know what to do with myself or how to even process it right now. I’m posting here because feeling the need to talk. I’m also feeling super low and exhausted. It was only a few days ago, times slow but it’s quick at the same time. Thanks for reading anyway
Hello @Chloe98x,
Thank you for so bravely sharing this with the community. I’m so sorry to hear about your grandad.
I hope you find the community to be a support to you. Many of our members have experienced the death of a grandparent and will understand some of what you’re going through. I’m not sure if you’ve seen our Losing a grandparent category. But there you will find lots of conversations from other members who are coping with their grief. You may find some comfort in knowing you are not alone.
You may also find these Sue Ryder resources helpful right now.
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Our Grief Guide self-help platform which has information, resources and advice to help you through your grief
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Our Bereavement Information pages which can walk you through what you are going through
I’m sure someone will be along to offer their support too. Keep reaching out and take care 
Naoise