Im 25 and I lost my grandad 6 weeks ago. I woke up to the sound of my mum screaming on the phone crying and I rushed to her thinking what on earth is going on, it was a paramedic telling her that her dad/ my grandad has sadly passed.
He was 76, I accept this is a good age but to me it’s scary. He was so healthy, had no health issues. Walked and went to the gym (lightly) almost everyday.
He died in his sleep completely unexpectedly, his heart just stopped. My grandma found him when she woke up and we just couldn’t believe it, he was fine the day before, I spoke to him completely normally and grandma said they and their normal day/ night routine and he didn’t feel ill or seem stressed/ different.
We are just heartbroken.
I suffer with anxiety and this has been my first loss, I don’t know how to feel. I am heartbroken and cannot get over the fact I will never see him again after speaking to him everyday for basically my whole life. I am trying to be strong for them, but even after speaking to my grandma on FaceTime yesterday and hearing that she is eating dinner alone at her table is breaking my heart.
I have fears for my grandma, on how she will cope potentially many more years without him, understandably this has destroyed her, I can see her shine has gone.
My mum is very good at covering she is ok but I know she’s not. Does anyone have tips on how to cope with these anxious thoughts and worries about the future.
Sometimes I even feel guilty about feeling this way if it was my grandad… is that normal? Especially with work when I have down days. We are an extremely close family so to me my grandad was my role model.