Today is another hard day.
I lost my husband suddenly on the 23rd August 25
I found him & he had been gone for several hours.
It was horrendous.
This was the last time I saw him.
I won’t know until Christmas/New year the cause of death.
He was 56 with no illnesses.
Life without him is incredibly hard & I am heartbroken.
I have days where I feel I cannot go on.
But I get up every day & then the tears start.
The house is so empty now & all the laughter has gone.
Dear Julie
I’m so sorry for what you’re going through. Reading your message brought tears to my eyes. I can truly understand your pain. I also lost my partner, suddenly in May 2025, and every day feels like a struggle to make sense of it all.
His 40th birthday would have been on the 6th of November, and as that day approaches, I feel the same emptiness you describe the silence in the house, the missing laughter, the ache that never seems to ease. Please know you’re not alone in this. There are days when just getting out of bed feels impossible, but somehow we do one moment, one breath at a time. Sometimes sharing even a few words with someone who’s been through something similar can make the days a little lighter.
Hello Justynap
Julie32
I lost my husband to Cancer in May a horrific death we I cannot delete from my brain he was 58 his birthday is November I put up banners for him every year and we always went away so I understand your pain. You are right the house is not a home now just somewhere I live he was soo funny even throughout his pain and suffering made me laugh every day brilliant one liners I miss him soo much just want to touch smell him hold him 21 weeks today god it hurts sending you soo much love
Dear Justynap
Thank you for your response to my message.
My condolences to you🥺
I feel your ongoing pain.
I will be thinking of you on the 6th November❤️
Be strong you got this 
My husband Craig worked from home on the computer & he was a graphic designer.
We decided to go down & see my parents for the August bank holiday wknd who are both elderly & live at home at the age of 89.
We had plans on the Saturday the 23rd August as our 9th wedding anniversary was coming up on the 8th September when we were do to go to London, everything was booked & we were so looking forward to our 3 days away as life was tough with my badly autistic son & learning disabilities, my mobility is very poor.
He was also my carer as I am disabled & my autistic son lives with us.
So like many, life for myself is very difficult as I am house bound & I cannot get any help from the OT for access to & from my home.
I don’t see many people from day to day so life can be extremely hard.
But I am alive & I am doing the best I can.
Julie x
I am so very sorry for your loss Julie and the suddenness is so hard to come to terms with . I lost my partner to SADS in April and had the long wait of the cause of death , it was hard to accept as he was a fit 63 year old healthy man who really looked after himself and because the coroner could find no cause the death it was recorded as SADS . You are very early into this horrendous journey we are all on and the numbness and shock will be there for a while yet. My only advice is to try to take good care of yourself and eat what you can (I know I just had no appetite at all) I hope you have a good network of family and friends to support you and of course this site as people who do understand.
Take care . Linda
I know the feeling it is hell. So sorry u r suffering. 
I know how you feel why is this so dam hard I’ve cried every day for the last 4 months and I just dont feel happy any more I hate living like this. Its our 11th wedding anniversary tomorrow and I’ve just written out my husbands card and I can’t stop crying. I miss him so much .I just hate this