Well i am awake and still here where i dont want to be i hate this time of year when everybody is celebrating and you are not what do i have to celebrate i feel i have nothing to celebrate at all not without paul why does it have to be like this nobody can tell you if there is a god up there why does he leave the other half of a couple feeling like this this is this is the mist horrible thing to do to anybody i am not a relgouis person at all but if ther is a god i think why does this person see happiness then take jalf of that happiness away that is such a cruel thing to do and he or she has broke me forever i cry everyday i am not with paul i cannot wait to be with him again as this is hell i am in now my best and only friend gone forever and never have anybody.to talk to about aÄş of this is the hardest thing of all
Hello @Sweetlady,
I’m so sorry for the loss of your husband. Thank you for sharing this with us. I’m just giving your thread a gentle, “bump” for you - hopefully someone will have some thoughts to share.
Take good care,
Alex
I can feel your pain, I’m exactly the same. I wish to be with Marek already, I miss him so much. I don’t see a point of being here.
I feel that this is like a punishment for something i have done wrong but i am a good person as paul would say i am to soft and give to much but he said that.is what he loved about me but.now i dont have him what am i supposed to do
That’s the price we pay for love, sadly.
Why do we have to pay any price for loving someone so.much is it not enough to.have to.lose them but also to.have to feel this way everday i wish i could have changed places with him i knew i was not strong enough to go through this paul was stonger than me and more positive than me he could have coped better than me and knew that i am just a mess all if the time do not see any point in this anymore i dont even get dressed anymore whats the point
I have to say I couldn’t have changed places with my Ray. I know he never ever would have coped if I’d gone before him. He relied on me for everything which I never ever minded. I loved him so much. It’s just me now left to carry the burden of his huge loss
Hi peg2
I had told paul that i would change places in a heartbeat as i new i was not strong enough without him