Hi
I am feeling terrible today watching the telly and of course whats on but xmas movies with love and happy endings they just make me.cry even more why cant i have the happy ending so i had my happy ending till he passed away and now its all gone all the happiness the security and most off all him wy do people say it gets.easier because i am in this for 5yrs now and i still feel the same and now new years eve is coming up and what do i do now one to celebrate with now one to give.a.new years kiss to i miss paul so much i wish i could have him back but thats never going to happen i used to look forward to new years eve all the calls you get from family and freinds wishing you a happy new year now nobody rings not even family they all text me.as.if thats.better i just want some to talk to and say happy new uear to