Hi
Today i am having the worst day ever i am so upset and crying i have let my husband down i am sitting here with his picture and i cannot apoligise enough i let him down as a wife and now i cannot change it i cannot even tell anybody even on here what i have done this is so hard not having that one person that you can confide in that will not tell anybody or judge you i have never in my life felt this sad and lonely and do not know what to do its so hard
If you can’t let it out on here tell a GP, anyone! You need that release of whatever it is.
Hugs from a stranger x
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Thank you but i cannot tell me gp neither its so hard i just wish paul was here i could tell him but he is not here i have even trying to talk to him about it but all i do is burst into.tears i know i need someone to talk to.about this but i need someone i can trust and that is the problem i have no one i feel so alone and this is getting me down .
Please get it out of your head!!!
It sounds too great to hold in, to re live, whatever it is.
Maybe you can tell someone on here.
Please x
I lost my mum this year too, whilst my husband was fighting for his life. Reason I say that is I realised I had also lost the one person other than my husband that loved me uncondtionally. I could have been a mass murderer and my mum would still have visited me, loved me!
I only have friends now, who.are kind but they have their own lives and some their own woes. No children. Juat me and my surviving dog, as lost her sister shortly after my husband.
I am rambling sorry! Just trying to say I would listen if you want to private message. No judgement. Or maybe choose another kind soul on here. Release it! X
Sarah, i do hope you are ok? please dont blame yourself , i say to my dear wife every night when i am in bed crying i am so sorry i let her down , didnt do enough for her, didnt complain enough to the cansultants about the side effects her medication was having.I try not to blame myself but i feel i always will.we put our faith in the medical profession and experts but we are not medical experts.I try not to blame myself but still do.Its all part of this awful grief process we are going through.I keep asking myself WHY? but no real answers.the most important thing i have found is to try and take things slowly, grief has no timeline, if you want to cry ,let yourself cry, i have cried heavily today, i still cry every day.Take things day by day.Reach out for support whether its to people on here or a councellor.Never feel alone, i have no children only cousins, they hardle bother so i really do know how it feels being alone, especially with all the worries and responsibilities.Look after yourself.
Oh how i wish i could but i cannot i have no one to confide in and i cannot tell my gp nor can i.put it on here this is horrible having to.keep it to myself and not.be able to.tell anyone i really do hate myself and i know that.i should not.but thats what i feel like i have been sat all day thinking what am i going to do and i do not have the answers just tears why oh why is everything like this i really do.not.know what to do
Sarah
You really need to get professional help. Leave at their door and out of your tortured head. X