Its me again got some very sad news when i got home my lovely old nieghbour passed away last week he was in a care home with dementia i saw his daughter everyday going up to his bungalow as they had two cats but i never go out so i never get to speak to her she lives two doors away and they lived next door he was a lovely guy and so was his son david david pssed away two months after paul and that was very hard for me as he was so nice to me after pauls passing then he had a massive heart attack and they could not save him he was only 46 then terry got dementia so they put him in a home and now he has gone as well what a start to this year
This is very sad. Especially for such a young man to die. Also it must have been so difficult for his Dad who had also presumably lost his wife also. It is only when you lose your partner that you realise the enormity of what others have been through previously.
I have lost both my parents and thought I knew what grief was. But losing your partner is a whole different thing because you also lose yourself in part. You don’t know who you are any more and feel invisible and insignificant. Take Care
Thank you for you message you are so right i do feel invisable and insignifagant i have felt this was for 5 yrs now even when i go out shopping nobody bothers with you i feel like i hace this sign around me telling people i am a widow i hate the word or beware its an awful feeling when paul passed away everything went with him the carers night sitteemr and nursing team and the minute carers leeds got to know then they went as well talk about being dumped well thats what it felt like although i have never been dumped before i am still here i am still alive why do i no longer count .
