Today i thought i was feeling better that lasted while i.was at home now i have come.out to my gp for blood tests routine i have taken that big step.backwards feeling that i am out off my comfort zone and one person has made me feel like this i never open up.that easily and let anyone in and i did just that and got hurt and now how do i come out into this world and trust people again i cannot do that i am sat in my car crying my eyes out thinking i do.not know what to.do now i know i.have to go and get things in bit i am so scared tjat i am going to have one of my panic attacks why oh why did i let someone in i told my doctor you see i do what you say and now look i am scared to ever trust anyone ever again my problem is to open to honest and to truthfull and where does that get me sat in a car park crying not knowing what to do next go home where it is safe but i need my shopping so will have to try wont i bit believe me i will never trust anybody again or let someone in to betray my trust ever again
