I am so fed up with myself today and angry at what i did.last night i went to bed and left a candle burning in my loving room i could have burnt.my house down it shows you what.my head is like i do not even know why i did not see it my mind is always ahead of its self it quite frightening if paul was here that would not have happened i really do not know what is wrong with me at all i wanted to go out.today and that has not.happened a friend told me about some lightbulbs to.get that.can be.cotrolled with and app or.alexa and i wanted to get.them but they have to be conected to the internet and thats where it goes wrong for me and i cannot bother my friend so i do not get them this would never been a problem when paul or jason was around but.now on my own i am no good at techy stuff any way going to wash my hair.maybe i will feel better after that i hope
Washing your hair is a positive, good for you. I’ve looked like a wild woman for months now. Gone are the days I wore makeup and did anything more than comb my wild hair (nearly said bush) I did get it cut on Saturday but it’s back to the scarecrow look.
It’s amazing how helpful watching a video on YouTube can be. My husband did everything, I was the labourer. Now I’m filling and painting and even put flat pack furniture together (with a break for a good cry when I realised I’d put something the wrong way round) on Friday I’m wallpapering, never done that before either.
It’s awful I know but I realised that now if I want something doing it’s down to me (with the help of YouTube)
Go get the bulbs, I bet there’s a video to show you how to connect them.
It’s all too much I know but I have to force myself or I’ll never move.
At least your house didn’t burn down. Thank goodness.. I know what you mean about your head not always being in the present. I often wake up and think what did I watch last night. I’ll be up till 1or 2am. Then I still can’t sleep as everything goes round and round in your brain. I’m like GIVE ME A BREAK.
As for the lightbulbs, do you get a 4locals booklet every month which advertises local people and companies that do odd jobs and stuff. You may find someone who will help. Obviously need to check reviews that there good. Just an idea.
My husband was the techy man but I’ve got better at it. Not everything though, my kids laugh at me when I go on about stuff. They are in there twenties and are not always quick to offer to do it unless I’m in a state over it. Sometimes it’s good to try and if you fail then just swear the house down. I swear at my husbands photo when I’m annoyed at him not being here for me.
Don’t beat yourself up to much I nearly did the same thing . I had left a candle burning in the front room. I went into the kitchen for my supper before going to bed . Forgot about the candle , it was only because I’d left the toy my dog goes to bed with. I went to get it i realised I’d left the candle burning. I blew it out and went to bed . No harm done, you didn’t burn the house down.
There’s an idea I see online about triggers versus Glimmers. We may be programed nature or nurture to recognize triggers but not so much the Glimmers. And a quip true or fiction is that somebody had a classmate who used a clicker every time something Glimmered for her. So she would click when she saw a duck or got an answer right or finished her lunch or a sketch. I was so inspired I did buy clickers. They may work for me now as they did for her.
