I had an appointment today with my social presciber at my doctors surgery and i missed it she rang me and made another appointment for me i know i need to talk to people but thats the bit that scares me all my life i have never been good at making friends or trusting someone i wish it was easy to go out there and talk to people but i do find it difficult to make friends i had a best friend who let me down and now i think i told her things you would tell a best friend in confidence and now i got let down a long time ago so how do i trust people ever again i dont need a boatload of friends i just need one true friend who will listen to me understand me and give me a hug when i need it ,is it me i am the problem am i expecting to much or even bieng to needy i dont know maybe i am so that is why i stay at home and do not go out i am scared of that world outside my house and people because i do not know what to do i am in tears writing this because the one person who made me feel so safe has gone
It sounds like you feel having just one person you can trust to share your thoughts with would help you but taking the steps to make that happen are frightening and overwhelming for you. It’s understandable that you are cautious if you have been let down before and grieving for your dear husband makes everything seem so much harder.
It’s good that you’ve rearranged the appointment with the social prescriber. Maybe think about everything one step at a time. The first step is attending the appointment. Could they visit you or have the appointment over the phone if that helps?
Can I asked what stopped you from going to the original appointment?
I missed the appoinrment because i just forgot about it i normally get a reminder from my surgery but i did not this time and i know when i go there is going to be tears and me in a mess and then when i leave there i have to sit in my car for ages before i calm.down so as to drive home
I u derstand all you are saying I am very much the same and keep my own company. I struggle to trust people and just can’t be one of those people who can strike up easy conversations with strangers. Socially awkward I guess is the right description. Being let down by a one trusted friend can be so hurtful,I have had it happen to me. It’s terrible when the one person you trusted and needed, your partner suddenly dies and leaves you alone. Try to just keep busy talking to like minded people on forums like this one or a social network site ,but stay guarded and keep information about yourself to yourself . We can’t let ourselves be stuck in this vacuum of grief and unhappiness for ever or there would be no point. I wish you well. Keep reaching out and venting your feelings on here it will help.
Let the tears flow Sarah. You are grieving and in need of support. I think forgetting things is also part of how lost we feel. I forget things all the time. Others will understand and if they don’t, they won’t be helpful anyway.
I hope you find a way to let your GP practice know how isolated you feel. There may be options s they can offer you. My local council offers a well-being service where you meet someone each week for 12 weeks and they support you in the way that you choose. It could be just a coffee or a walk or going with you to a group or an appointment. There are also befriender services.
It sounds like having support from just one person would feel enough for you to begin with. Keep letting us know how you are. Xx
