Losing my husband

Hi everybody
I am putting thise on here as I have no one else to tell this to I am not after anybodys pity at all I don’t want anybody sympathy or anything lik that but I have had enough of this i give my heart out to everybody my family included in this does anybody in my family care how I feel no I give them everything of me all the help they need and what do I get in return nothing I do not ask a lot just ring me you know once a week and check up on me but do they no I could be dead and they would not even n know I have one nephew that takes me out oce a fortnight if I smile or be happy there is questions as to why I had a friend on here and we talked just talked snd it made me happy to have someone to talk to but the minute they found out all he’ll broke loose they came to see me and like a fool I did not realise what was going on i let them in happy to see them but I had been on my phone and I had left it open in the table they came in I was busy making drinks I never noticed one had disappeared into the other room he had took my phone found out who I was talking with on here as I never shit myself out why would I its my phone they sent a message to this person and I did not know what they had done until.i checked my emails and found one that told me what had happened then I realised what they had done take way my only friend the only one person that had a bit of time to talk to me well what gave i ever done wrong in this life to be treated like this nothing I was a good wife to my husband 44 yrs with him the only thingbi did wrong was survive him and that is something I wish I had not well they have won I am back to miserable sarah no friends no nothing happy now yes they will be I am not no friends that makes them happy they have won as this is me turning my mobile phone off I have a land line but they never ring but my mobile is off now and going in a drawer I cannot take this anymore

Sarah :broken_heart: :broken_heart: :broken_heart: