Hi
Well i gave been awake since 3am I woke up and my brain was thinking about paul thinking where is he i am not coping with this part of my life I am trying but not working I miss him I miss his cuddles and someone to snuggle up to this is the worst part of it all the not knowing the not feeling them just in bed with you why does it have to be like this why does it have to be so lonely so empty I am tired of feeling this way tired of never having him here with me is this what I am facing for god knows how long I never thought this part of my life would be like this at all but then I suppose none of us did 
Sweetlady