Hi this is one road I never wanted to be on i am not strong enough for this i thought I was but I am not years ago when I was young and going out with my husband to be there was a group of us myself and paul, Sue and Kenny, Steve and Sue,and Rita and Trevor it was Rita that I felt sorry for because although some where married and some getting married it was never going to happen for Rita that girl lived on her nerves 
her and Trevor had a set of twins but still Trevor would not commit to Rita all she wanted was to be married like the rest of us but it was never going to happen for that lovely young girl we got a phone call to tell us all that Rita had committed suicide she had taken her twins to her mums a beautiful soul gone to young because of a man not willing to marry her I often think about Rita now as I sit here on my own and think what a courageous young lady she was I did think about this when my auntie passed away but I knew paul needed me but now paul has been gone 5yrs now I still think of Rita and how courageous this young lady was and I know I am nothing like that I do not have the courage to do anything like that at all all I can think about is this what it is meant to be like no friends at all nobody to talk to no children to help me what a lonely horrible life I have now compared to when I was young I now know what its like for Rita and how lonely she must have felt well Rita you are up in heaven and paul is up there with you and now I can feel your pain and by god its hard you are one young lady I will never forget and I know you and paul will be chatting away up there I will always remember you for your courage and I will always have Paul’s love but you are all up there and I find it so lonely down here without you I willcakways love you paul but I need you tell send me a friend whom I can talk to please I only need one you know I am now good on my own never have been your ever loving wife sarah
Sweetlady