Hi
I am not looking for what family i have which is two brothers and some nephews to put me first as i know they have there own lives and that i.get 
but it would just be nice.if they rang me and checked on me instead of me always trying with them boys are so different to us girls if they needed me i would be there in a heartbeat for them as i feel that is what you do for family i don’t want sympathy from anyone just a bit of understanding that is all i knew the night my husband passed away that this was going to happen and i said it to my nephew who was trying to console me that i never ever wanted to be a burden and now i feel like that i never ask them for anything as it hurts me to much to think i have to rely on them and i do not want that i want them to enjoy there lives they work hard for that i knew this day would come but i never gave it another thought you don’t when you are young i will always miss paul and that is never going to change for me as for carving a new life well thats another thing thats hard to do .
Sweetlady