Hi
I just had to.put this on here and let people know how i am feeling my self esteem is at an all time low i have never had it this bad i have always suffered from this but since my husband has passed away it has got worse after meetin my husband he really helped me with it and got me feeling great about myself but since him.passing there has been no one to help me feel better about.myself and gain mu confidence back but now i have lost it all again no cofidence and very low self esteem amd i do not know how to change it i don’t like the look of myself and my body i do not like it when i was young i was to thin now i am older and to fat and thats how i look at myself nothing will ever change this is me and how i am sad but true never the pretty one boys never ever looked at me or even gave me.a second glance when i was 11 my first school.dance my mum bought me all new clothes for and i went on my own when i got to the doors i could not.go in so i.sat on a wall and watched all the others go in and i.waited for them to leave then i went home again on.my own i.never ever went.to another school dance.in my life so i suppose thats when it.all.started even at that young age i felt ot not pretty so i must be ugly and all the boys gave me a wide berth then when i was 17 i met my husband and he saw how.low i was and he changed me in a way nobody.else could it felt great and for the first.time.in my.life i felt.alive till his passing in 2020 i have regressed back into myself amd my low.esteem is at a all time low that is why i do not go put.of the hoùse and i stay where its safe so as no one can hurt me only.myself i do miss my husband and he is the one person in this world that helped me thats.for.sure and i miss him terribly
Sweetlady