This has been one hell off a day which i ,never want to repeat at all in my live at all things could not get.any worse than
They already have i am in a miserable mood and cannot shift it
It just seems to go.from.bad to worse i am so upset and have been in tears all day i wish my husband was here to help me and make it feel better but i know that is also never going to happen so i have to face this alone and it is so hard to do on your own
I can never ever forgive myself i thik the best thing is to stay off here and then it stops
Sweetlady
Grief can really mess with your emotions, and a smallest of things can make you angry. It amplifies every sort of emotion. It’s really hard when you have someone that you rely on or would be the go to person whenever something happened because they would always firstly make you feel better in some cases make you feel safe. And in some cases calm you down and let you know that it was all going to be alright. I miss all of that. When you have that one person who is your everything and they’re no longer around you feel their immensely and Ask yourself how am I going to cope without them. All you can do is take one day at a time
Wish I could relieve you of it and find the words to help you.
I know you so need to release and no doubt after so many years you have tried to deal with it all and that must make it soooo much harder that you can’t dig yourself out of your hell.
So if this site helps to release your torture continue to do so and if it upsets you so than yes give it a rest
I think we do cling on to hearing a reply on here, a kind word, an understanding in that very moment and can floor us if no one seems to be listening.
But try not to be upset if that happens!
Take me posting to you today. I have only just seen your post 13hrs after. You probably needed a kind word instantly, to try to steady yourself.
I am coming off now, so I may not see reply if you do one. So don’t think I am ignoring you but I just get a bit low if I am on here continually but sometimes need to release my thoughts, like most on my own and need it out of my head in some way.
Hi sweetlady thinking of you and I for one would miss you but please do whatever feels right for you at this time .I know this grief journey is relentless but it’s a comfort for me to know we aren’t alone on this lonely path Take care Sarah.
Take care Sarah.